幻想

幻想偶尔是甜的
又可能是苦的
活在那，
让人又喜又悲

幻想加上真实
不知该怎样
可能走出幻想吗？

会偶尔带来麻烦
也会迷迷糊糊
只能不要多想
就成功了！

Cny Eve

Date 25 Jan 09 ( SUn)

WOW WOW WOW.. ONe more day.. and Fatty MOO MOO year is coming. haha!!

Hereby I wish all my friends and family 'HAPPY CNY'.

Gong Xi Fa Cai.. Angpow 'na lai'. hehe
WIsh all of you have a great year.
More good things will happen.
Have Good Health.
Live Happier.

牛年行大运
身体健康
步步高升
大吉大力
做生意的，生意兴隆
读书的，学业进步

祝大家，新年快乐！

First Day

Date 22 Jan 09

Same place, Same time, Same environment. But different identity, differrent role.

I start my work today. I am happy to have so many teachers helping me and teaching me stuff. You all are still my bez teachers. haha! I always thought I have a loud voice. But at the end, some say can't listen to me. I had maximised my voice. Unfortunately, my voice still cant reach till the end of the class.. Sorry people. I have to swallow a speaker soon. hahaha!

Quite a tiring day as I have seldom woke up so early in the morning. haha.. maybe i am so used to speak english and mandarin, my malay seems to 'berkarat' d. haha!

Gonna start work TMR

Date 21 Jan 2009

haha! so happy about today. I finally get my approval and going to start work tomorrow.
And 5 Science 1 06 classmates. I heard that pn yong fell down and hurt her arm. She undergo operation and need to rest. I called her just now. She says she's ok. And i got some teaching tips from her. ahaha! I suggest that we should visit her one day. OK? I asked her where she stays d. roughly know where is it. I plan that we should go next week but she says that she balik kampung. So, have to wait till she come back only can go and visit her.

haha! WISH me luck!

Nestum COokies

Getting ready for the nestum cookies

















Going INTO the oven
















HOt and still hot.. haha!





















Gosh! I missed the taste of nestum cookies. LONG TIME DIDNT EAT d. Haha!!

- 17/1/09

Yummy snacks

Guess what is this?
















haha.. looks like 'ma tai'(hokkien)
















prepare to be fried
















In the process of frying.
















Here it is. fry till golden brown. haha!




















haha!! its called 'ciku' according to my mom. i am not sure whether it is spelled correctly or not.
thats what i do today. 2kg of ARROW HEAD. This is One of the cny snacks. Must try! hahaa!
-14/1/09

COrnflakes cookies

Today morning, I woke up at 8am to start to prepare to Bake CORNFLAKES cookies. My relatives are also coming to help.

Kuih Kapek

The 'stove' for kuih Kapek


















The BEZ kuih kapek EVER.. hahaha!!! made by me.. kakaka!!!


















Eh? How come not kuih kapek but SOTONG???? Haha! This is sampingan eh.


















The ready and delicious kuih KAPek.. haha!



















The Yummy Kuih Kapek.. hahahaa!!! I LOVE KUIH KAPEK.
I spend my NEW YEAR day by doing kuih kapek.. A lovely memory. HAHA!
- 1 Jan 2009

Panforte

Today, me, my mom and sis baked panforte. Well, I am not very sure how to explain it. But, I think its tasty. These are the ingredients I have to get ready before the baking. I cut till my hands become SHAKY.. Over 1kg of ingredients.














These are the mixed fruits and nuts. Haha!














The ingredients needed.














TADA!!! The panforte is ready!














A closer shot. HAHA! Looks TASTY BO? Easy to bake but hard to prepare. Bake 3 recipe of it. Scared d. hahaa!!!


- Date 10/1/2009

LOST

date 5 JAN 2009 ( MONDAY)

Have you ever feel that you are lost?
Have you ever feel that there's no place that can fit you?
Have you ever feel that you are stupid for wondering around the place?
Have you ever feel that you are a disturbant to ask people when people are busy?

Gosh.. I felt all those today. Feel like smashing myself. Today, I went bac to my school. Trying to get my leaving certificate. Sadly, the leaving cert. is not ready yet. I have no choice but to tell the teacher that I need the cert. So, the teacher in charge ask me to come back at 11am to get from him. One of my friend told me that I wouldnt get the cert so fast. Only till I get my results. But I have no choice because I need it. Anyway, thanks for the advice.

WHile waiting, one of the teacher ask me to help out in the SPBT room. So I hang out in the SPBT room to help out.( at least a place to fit me in) The room is just like a sauna room. Anyway, I enjoy helping them. HAHA! Later, I went down to find the teacher. Another disappointment. The teacher said I cant get my cert. today. HM still didnt sign yet.

I was totally out of idea. Im so sorry teacher to disturb you. Thanks for helping me anyway. The office clerk told me that I can get a letter of approval that I am the student of that school. After that, I rush to another school to send in my application.

Before that, I was in the staff room to chat with the teachers. At that time, I suddenly feel I am so awkward. I was afraid to disturb the teachers. My teachers are all busy. But then at the same time, I have no where to go. The feeling of lost and stupid grows stronger and stronger. I really hate the feeling. I think I will have to experience this feeling whenever I explore to new places.

I will just have to get myself fit into the situation. The feeling of helpless is really conquering my heart at that very moment. Down my heart, I seriously pray that someone will just please accompany me. I didnt want to be alone. I always thought I can be independent. The fact told me that I may not be. I also understand that I shouldnt always depend on my friends. I have to learn to do things alone. Friends may also be busy with their stuff. I understand that. Just a little hope in myself to get someone accompany me. Haha!

So, after this experience I grow a little more. Not in my height or width, but my experience. haha! thanks again for leading me through all these. Anyway, my little gift from God is that I get to meet most of my classmates today.haha!! THanks again for everything today. Thanks to my teachers for giving me some help today. I appreciates it. ARIGATO.

> wasnt in a good mood before writing dis blog. anyway, after that I felt much better. A place for me to express everything. I have found it.

YEAR 2009

DAte 1 JAn 2009

Its a new year! A new start. Looking forward to have a better year.
Hoping for better stuff. Better friendship. Better LIfe.
Wipe all the bad stuff. ANd remember the good things.
Learn from the past experience.

Wish all my friends and family. HAPPY NEW YEAR. HAVe a great day!!!